This is so beautiful. Cello and The Legend of Zelda, both amazing things :)

Press day.

For being press day, and it being a day earlier this month than it normally is, it's actually not so bad.
I'm pretty calm, and I think we're making pretty good time. I hated a design that I did for this paper, but decided to totally change it up this morning and now love it :) as do my advisors.

I'm currently looking over the pages and listening to an orchestral version of The Legend of Zelda music :)

I can't wait for this weekend. It shall be lovelyy.

It's press week.

We go to press tomorrow.

And I'm just about ready to smash my head into my desk :)
Not only do I have a huge headache, but the design/photo I'm working on aren't working the way I want :( Not cool. Not cool at all.

Disappointment.

I got my History research paper back today. I got a 65.. But, luckily, he is allowing corrections to be made for those who turned it in on time. If I do this, I have the possibility of earning back half of the points I lost. So, I can at least pass.

It's my own fault that I got such a low grade, but I'm still incredibly unhappy with it. And since my teacher knows I'm editor-in-chief of the paper, I have a feeling he's probably questioning why right about now. -_- But in my defense, I hate history. I hadn't even heard of my topic when I was assigned it. So of course my paper isn't going to be my best work if I didn't look forward to doing it in the first place. But oh well.

It's going to be a busy weekend.. And honestly, I'm not really looking forward to it >.<




I just want it to be the end of the month already, honestly..

Today feels like a good day.

I woke up this morning, still craving more sleep; there were onions in my breakfast burrito (I hate onions with a passion); I spilled coffee on the shirt I planned on wearing today; I was running late for work and I currently have headache, and yet I feel amazing. I'm in such a great mood.


But, I have a lot of work to do. So I shouldn't waste time writing on here >.<

When a day that starts off incredibly shitty can end up being amazing, that's when you know you've managed to grasp something of true greatness.

A sense of relief.

Because of my horrible habit of procrastination, I spent all yesterday and into this morning working on a History research paper that I had to turn it at 9 this morning. I ended up falling asleep at 1:30 this morning and somehow managed to get myself to wake up at 4:30 to finish the paper up. So, I'm running off of 3 hours of sleep. Plus, I have a huge headache. But I suppose I feel better now that the assignment has been turned in, although I'm sure I'll fail it anyway..

Today feels like a shitty day. Not only do I feel a sense of disappointment from several people toward me, but I feel a bit disappointed in myself lately.. I don't know what the hell I'm doing anymore, and honestly, I don't know that I care. I seem to have lost motivation to do anything I used to be passionate about. Which makes me feel like I've lost the will to live. I don't know what to do...

I need something to just come up and kick me in the ass. Something inspirational to just punch me in the face. (If I know you in person and you read this, no, I do not want you to kick me in the ass or punch me in the face, thanks.)
But seriously. I need some inspiration/motivation. I hate this feeling.

I hate History class.

That is all.

Heavy in Your Arms

I've been listening to this song on repeat all day. I love it :)

I hate school work.

I tend to be really good at procrastinating. This always bites me in the ass. Especially when I have a 5-10 page research paper due in History class on Wednesday and today is Monday. Not to mention, History is probably my worst subject ever >.<

If anyone reads this and knows anything regarding the topic Naval Disarmament Treaties of the 1920's, feel free to enlighten me :) Cus' as of right now, I don't know shit. :/

If it wasn't bad enough already, I have a really hard time focusing to get any work done.. I'm sitting here, with headphones in my ears, trying to seclude myself from all my surrounding, and I still can't seem to focus. Rawr.


Oh yeah, also, my horoscope for today basically called me a fatty. How sweet, haha.

I messed up the design of my blog's layout the other day. And I'm too lazy to fix it. I don't like it though -_-

Drained.

I'm sitting at work, where basically all I do is sit at a desk, doing whatever I need to do (most of the time nothing at all, really). I feel energy running through my veins. I feel the need to get up and run laps, but I feel as if I did, my legs would crumble beneath me.

I hate this feeling of unproductiveness. Pure laziness, really.

But, I suppose I'm not being completely unproductive. For I'm attempting to work on classwork to keep me from failing. And working on stories for the paper.
But as far as photography/Photoshop/design goes, I feel like I've lost all motives to do any of it. I hate that feeling. I think I can honestly say that it is one of the worst feelings I have ever felt in life. And sadly, it's something I feel on almost a day-to-day basis...

Blah. I need to do something artistic. Like, right now. -_-

I've never wanted something as badly as I want this right now..